worried for people

when i got home for thanksgiving break there was a lot of people get hurt. when i got home my brother was telling me about one of his friends was out walking home form some where and he had a full clip unloaded on him. the sad part is that he was not that old either. i feel worried for my neighbor she just graduate from from school for being a cop. the cops now are being blamed for so much and so many of them are good people. but what can you do you cant save everyone. which is the sad truth of the matter no matter where you are looking. 

remembering

This break had remind me the reason of why i left Chicago and came up here. There are many reasons why i left but I'm just going to say a few reasons why. The first big reason is that there are so many people that i dislike and just dont like to deal with them. The reason is that they like to mess with me to much and they dont know when to leave me alone. i know that i can walk away from them but they just make it hard to do that. the second reason why is because the people in chicago just dont know when to shut there mouth about the littlest things. they have make themself feel like they are the most important in the world. but they also think that they have to speed every where there is ice or cops or a lot of other cars. so the whole time they think that they are more important then the person next in the cars. where as up here people dont really care how fast they are going because they know that they are going to get to the place they need to. the third part is that people think they can do what every they what which is just getting annoying to see that happen. but what can you do. i think that i made a good choice on coming to school up here. 

bears vs. branco game

i went tot the game on Sunday Nov. 22. it was a fun game to watch with my dad. it was funny in the beginning of the game when they are calling the players to come out. they called Jay Cutler out. wow it was bad the whole stadium was booing him. i do not think that i have ever see that happen in any game that i have went to. the funny part is that when me and my dad left with i think three minutes left in the game. the bears manage to score but they still managed to loss the game 17- 15. the game was fun to go to with my dad because i have not been to a bears game in a long time. but i think that's fine because i still thought it was cool to go.

break

i just wish that thanksgiving break would come sooner. It will be great seeing my family. i have seen them since i went home for a day. back in late September because we had a game in Milwaukee against Marquette University. that was nice to see them even if it was just for a it was still nice. the fun thing is that i will be seeing my friends that have not seen me for a long time too. i know one thing is that i have a lot of people that i need to see before i leave for school again. I'm really excited to see my aunt to i have not seen her in over four years because she moved down to Scottsdale Arizona. The other person that i will be seeing is my cousins pat and Sean. my cousin pat will be graduating from officer cannon school and boot camp for the Navy. the fun thing is that me and him will probably be playing a little rugby during the time he is in. I think that i will probably will be trying to hit in the rib cage when I'm trying to tackle him. im going to be up in south haven for thanksgiving to.   

its over sadly

so this weekend was hard for us on the rugby pitch. we played two game this weekend to get on the national bracket. but we lost our two conference games that we had. in our first game on Saturday we played Lindenwood-bellville. we lost to then 40-6 it was a hard game for us but we should of beaten them like we should have done.but it became a had lost. the next day we played Northern Iowa University. we need to them to go down to Chicago next weekend. but because we lost to them our season is over. but it was a great season and i'm so happy that i played this season and i plan to play a lot longer to. 

the weekend

This weekend is going to be fun me. At the same times its going to be hard. the reasons that it will be hard is because we have instead of one game we play two. one on Saturday against Lindenwood-Bellville and they are number one in the south conference. So we play them and if we bet them or lose to them we play the on Sunday. the other thing that's going to make it hard is that i have to do a lot of homework this weekend like my essays for en 103 and en 109. I'm fine with that because i have teammates that can help me work on it and fix errors and other things. the other good thing is that if we win at least one of our games we can get on the bracket for the 15 team bracket. the great thing is we play in Chicago for those game which I'm excited for because some people want to come and see the game like my family and friends. there all excited to come to the game. i hope its not to far my house. i know that the game will be downtown. But I'm not sure where yet it mite be either Loyola University, DePaul, of maybe even University of Illinois Chicago. i hope its not UIC. I'm just not a fan of going there. but i dont care really. They are all a little drive from my house but the good thing is that i know where I'm going around the city.

the first round of the playoffs

the first round was a great win for us. The score was 27-24 against Illinois State University. They were a hard team for us to play. But it was a really good game it was close the whole way threw it. there we're a few calls in the game that i thought were bad but you cant fight it.this weekend will be even harder. Because we are playing two games the first one is against Lindenwood-Belleville they are 11 in the nation for D2 right now. The other team might be whitewater who is number two in the nation and we played then once this season already and that was our only lost. But we may play Northern Iowa and the are 12 in the nation. I'm not worried about it i think we can bet them. We beaten some great teams this season already. The game is down in Cottage grove Wisconsin. So we got a long drive down but it will be a good drive the good thing is that even if we lose one game we will still be going to the next round. That will be in Chicago not sure on the location of the game yet but it will be told soon. Im just enjoying this season a lot because one we are 13 in the nation for D2 and second this is just a whole lot of fun to play this game. 

fear

I'm not sure when the last time i seen fear was. there was a little worry about coming to school up here. but i was also worried about laying rugby. the choices with coming up here were great for me I'm enjoying everything and learn a lot but i have not have any real fears in a long time. i think that interest because everybody usually have a little fear in there little. but i uses i don't know when the last time was that i had fear. when i was growing up had a fear of cemetery  but not now i'm fine with them. Even with horror movies now a day they give me some scares but that what i want to happen. i enjoy the that. but when all said and done i do have a little fear about me dying but i sure a lot of people have that to. the more you look at death is going come just need to live your life to the fullest. i sure that hard to do but doing sports and coming up here are great to me for. i know it wired to not know when your last fear is but i really dont. i wish i did but what can i do.

stout game

the stout game was great for us. it was a game we need to win to get in the finals for both of us. we beat them 40 to 14. there great moments of scoring for us. the b game was fun for me to get in i got the ball a couple of times the first time i got it i only made it a meter. but the second time i got no where. but it was funny because when the guy tackled me kind of pull my shorts down. so as i got up i was mooning the stout team the were laughing at it. i even though that it was pretty funny to. they didn't expect that to happen but i was not at the same time i just wish i could have made better tackle on there guys i have had great shots to get there guys with the ball but i always missed by a few inches.

excited

i am excited about our game tomorrow. the reason is because if win it. it means that are second in our conference which is WIIL North. this is big for us because last year from what i was told we did pretty bad. but this was a very big season for us we beat some great teams. but the only team that we lose to was UW Whitewater. the only thing is that they are number 2 in the nation for dii. the only thing i don't get is why Whitewater and UM-Duluth don't move up to dI they go to the championship every year. Duluth even beat i cant remember if it was University of Michigan or Michigan state by 20 points. i dont get that really they should have the change to move up. but with us its great to hear we r going to the playoffs. i interested on finding out where we are going to play them. because i heard that they maybe played in new york, Pennsylvania, or even in north Carolina. I dont care where it is mostly because this is just a fun sport for me because i get to see different school and people. i love hitting people and hitting them even harder when i get the ball.

death

death is the most common thing in the world. i dont think that should fear it. but that just my thoughts. even when there is death happening people blame a god. i will say this i dont know if there is a god to blame for people dying. even when a kid dies they fell the need to blame something. the more and more you look at it will come for you . Even edgar allen poe talked about death all the time. he's one of my favorite poets. because he learned how to take death a turned it in to a way to not to just fear it but also like it. when i read his work i learned about how he took the littlest things a should how death is going to come. in his short story the mask of the red death he shows how even when you try to hide out for death it will always come to get in the end. he wrote it about the plague going around europe kill people in the mass numbers. but even in Shakespeare work he talks about how even with young love they kill each other no matter if they did not need to be together. but i am from the south side of chicago which is very bad at the moment. if you watch the news you can see how ever day there are people shooting at each other. its true death does set fear in a lot of people, but some people are intrested to find out what happens after you die. who really knows what happens but i think that that time will surely tell us what will happen. in the words of blue oyster cult "dont fear the reaper".  

my military thought

i have thought about joining the military. But my grandpa put in to may families heads that we go to the Marines or the Navy. but even looking at every branch i on think that the marines would be a great pick for me not just for family reasons but for the fact that i believe they are a better choice for me. I have not decided if i want to go in to officer candidate school when i finish college or do i just want to go in as enlistment. But my choice depends kind on what i want my m.o.s. to be. thatss a big key for it. To tell the truth i have been around people in the military all my life. Most of the people have been in the Marines. the truth is that get this would not just be hard on me but hard for my family. I have talked with my dad and my brother on it. My dad was supporting me to do that but I know tat it would be hard for him as well. Talking to my brother about it he sounded like he would have been scared for me. But the thing is that in time there mite be a war breaking out again and we may need more people signing up for to fight. I have a cousin that will graduating from Navy boot camp as a full blown officer. I find it great for him do i know if i want to go in yet no but i have some time. But the more i think about i sounds like a great idea but then i start to think what i want with my life. But i think that would be great for anybody. I will say i do would wat would happen if i died in battle wo would miss me who would be happy that i was died. The big thing is that am i afraid to die? Yes I am but then again I think every one is a little afraid to die. In the words of John Lennon "I'm not afraid of death. i dont know ow i feel about it at the moment. but i would like to live to a ripe old age with yoko. but i think death is just getting out of on car and getting into another car." John Lennon. It seems like people more and more are trying to act like we dont need our military but thats the biggest lie i have every heard of. Because if we lost our military other countrys would try and push us around and end the we live because they dont like the way we are free. i will abmit that over the time our miltary has got a little ruff around the edges but i still think there little places we can in prove at the same time.  

pen pal writting

dear pen pal
 I'm doing this because it for my class. We did essays that argument essays I thought that they were interesting to because of how we took a character from a story and we were trying to put it in the point of view of then. the essay was not that had to do but the way I had to organize it made wonder if there any other way that I can try and do it. I but I will say I still don't like doing essays.  Even though I had to do it for my high school classes all the time. but I guess you just need to always do them. which I'm some what ok with that but I still don't what to do it. I'm a little nervous about doing a few thousand word essay for her. I just need that to get done fast.

thanksgiving break

I think that I'm ready for the break to happen. Its good to great to see some of the people that miss me. I hope that I can get a little training with the Southside Irish rugby club. They can help me get ready for the spring season. which I heard is all tournaments. The fun thing is I plan to do a little jamming with my friends. I'm excited to play so music my friends. I think I mite go home for a weekend but I mite do it to get the hard to on m car more then anything. I'm excited to see now it starts snowing in Chicago then I will just compare it to how it is up here.

A great game

This weekend we played UW Lacrosse. The team was ranked number four  in the nation. But Saturday game. we beat them 19-14. It was a great win because it moves us up higher in the ranking. The crazy thing is that they were getting so mad about us betting them that they were starting to throw punches and starting to fight dirty with us. The funny part we did not let that us affect us. We just play our game. The other thing that hard for us in the game was that the sir was not calling anything that was happening. Because they were doing high takes, going over the line, and doing other things.

uw milwakee game

This game was a great it was our first home game win. even though it was our second win of this season it still felt great. the b game was fun to because I  got in and we play 7 man game. that when you 7 vs. 7. there is other like 10vs10 which I thought was a lot of fun. we will play 7 and 10 during the spring season. right now we are play 15 man games. but back to the game I go the ball only once but when I did I took 4 of there guys to take me down. the worst part was that I got stepped on my hand, foot, and on my chest. I just did not care when it happened but I'm fine with it. I'm excited about the game this weekend because we are playing UW Lacrosse because I have my family coming up to visit me but the other this is if we bet Lacrosse we probably will get ranked this year because they are number four I believe. but it will be great to be them.  

marquette rugby game

I know this is a little late but I don't mind. we went to Milwaukee Wisconsin on the 26 of September. it was a great game. we got our first win. it was our first win of the season. but there was two things that I enjoyed. the first thing was that I got to go home for a da and see a cfew of my friends. the second is in the b game. I got the ball three times and every time I got the ball it would take seven of there guys to take me down which was crazy. the crazy part was last minutes of the game we did a line out. but the ball went to me I turn to get the ball right when it hit my hands I go hit straight in the ribs it took a couple minutes for me to get up. The medics we're shocked that I got up from that hit and so was a lot of the Marquette team and our team we're shocked by me getting me up.   

this week

This week I think its going to be a long one. I get that week don't have English tomorrow but it will still feel long. for rugby this week will be hard because are have to fix a lot of things to get ready for Marquette University I keep hearing there a pretty good team but that doesn't mean I'm to scared to face them I think that we can bet them. I just have to make sure I get everything done on Thursday or maybe I get it done before that. If I can maybe I can have the guys on the team help with my homework. this team is great because its has the feeling of a brotherhood. but this week should be ok I have a test in music in society. Which is not that bad but I do have to study for it. I wonder if anyone on the team can help me study for it more. I know the team has a lot of smart people on it.   

music

9/17/15
Man I start to get how Paul McCartney felt when him and Lennon wrote I'm so tired. Because the White album is one of there longest albums. but with song I can see why he wrote it. But I think that they were saying when they were wrote it took the about three to four day and they would always be working till about five in the morning. I get that it got hard for them at some points of the career. I think I would enjoy getting in to the music. I think if got out with my music I would enjoy it but even The Beatles said they had trouble enjoying the music. But if you think about it music the flame of music always dies a little for them but there always should be a light in them no matter who the artist is from rock to jazz its always there. I remember reading a article about Johnny cash. he said that even though he has been playing music for over 40  year he still for ways to enjoy it. If it was bring his wife in to sing with him or even sing a song from a different band. a couple year before he past away he did a cover of nine inch nails song hurt. when you listen to the different of how it's song by Cash. With Cash you can hear in his voice of pain that he went through over his life time. It just makes them sound perfect in the world. But no matter what you can always see him loving his music. Even when he was drugged out of his mind and trying to play his music then to. The sad part is now when you look at music it all about the money. I get that the money is great to have but money is not the world. That why I think music is so bad because people stop trying to really write there own music and there using all these affects in the song that just make it sound like they were tring rush the song just so they can get there millions of dollars. I find it sad.  

a great game

I played in the game yesterday and it was great. The game was against Michigan Tec. I'm not sure what the score was it was either 67-0 or 57-0. I had a lot of fun when I got in. I hit there two biggest guys at the same time which was just awesome. Doubled legged the guy and kind of threw him into the other guy. the best part is when I heard the biggest guy say "well that was unexpected'. I laughed at that a little a just run to were the ball is at. I think that we can do very good against UW Whitewater. They probably will be hard but I really do think that we can do it against them. they mite be good or they mite be bad this year who knows that's the first real game of this year. It should be really fun I just need to make sure I get my homework done. which is not that bad.    

game weekend

I think I ready to the game this Saturday. This week we have a game is at Michigan Tech. I think that we will a great game. the last time we played them we killed them 11 tries to one try. which is a crazy amount of points. I wonder if its going to be like last time to with taking out about six or seven of there guys. The one thing that I know is that we need to watch out because they will be coming after us and trying to bet us. I need to make sure that I tape my ears up so they don't get ripped off or I get collie flower ear. But if that happens I don't think that I would care because I know its from playing a fun sport. its crazy that we don't have more people that want to play. Even though you can et hurt every easily. I think if I work with people that been play me position a lot longer then I have I think I can be a pretty good rugby player. I plan on trying to score even though it doesn't happen a lot with my position I still think that I can do it.

a argument

the last time I was in a real argument in my senior year of high school. I had it with two of my buddies. I was original looking at going to school at University of Alaska Fairbanks and Anchorage. I was talking about jobs in Alaska and the main one that I was talking about was being a welder. I was talking about how they make 250 dollars a hour but a lot of that was hazarded pay. When I said how much they got pay they started telling me I was wrong about that. but the thing is that my  brother had ten friends that all went up there to work and they all said that they made $250 a hour. My one buddy started telling me that I was lying and he knows that they don't get pay that much because he works in a black smith shop. But I also try in a say how they only work about 15 years because the job is just so hash on there bodies they only live 10 to 15 years after they retire from the job to. They start saying that they work all that time and would have all that money. My thing was I was going to text one of them to show that I not wrong. The other part is in Alaska the taxes are higher, I start telling that they were both wrong. they started trying to fight back with me but a very good friend had stepped in and got them to stop because me and him both pulled up the pay for welder  in Alaska.

a fun day

I think this day has been a lot of fun for me for the weekend. besides playing in my for rugby game I think I'm finding things to do up here with others form my dorm. I just of a cliff. I will admit it that it was not black rocks. Even tough it was not it still was a get time. I even got a raft and was floating in the water. The water was prefect today the weather was great and the day was just great period. I really do hope that I have more of these days, but if I don't that's ok with me. I do wish that I could have gone to the blues fest to day. But even if I don't that's always ok to. I do need to find  music show for my music in society class. I don't really care that I have to do that I cool that im able see more musical acts of Marquette to see the see and hear the sounds. I think the new sounds around here will be great to expand my music surrounding which I love to do.

not sure

I not sure what it is but I feel like going for a swim in lake superior. I'm sure the water is freezing today and a little choppy. But I think the more I stay up here I think I get more it which is getting to be pretty good. I will say that half the time I don't feel like doing anything a lot of the time. I think I'm for the ready for the UW Whitewater game. I watch the film of there game last year there good but I'm not to worried about it I think we talent, speed, and strength to bet them. I think its going to be a great season of rugby for all of I think we can also make it to playoffs which will be awesome for us to go.     

music

I think this year is going to be good for me because of my music in society class. I think that the class is going to help me grow a musician. the great thing is that I sure that it going to help me learn how write my music even more to. I just hoping by the end of the year I can get a band together. I'm not sure I would play guitar or play bass. Either way I think I would be fine with. the big thing is that I hope is the music that I am starting to write again sound good. But this is time I can take to tweak it and rewrite it till I happy with and others are to. I happy that I got a teacher that pretty cool. the great thing is that I'm sure I will be learning how to read music even better to which is fine if I don't learn it. there a lot of musicians that never learn how to read it like The Beatles they never knew how to read notes they knew how to play them. They did perfectly fine with out know how to do it. But I do hope I can get a band together by the end of the year and if I don't I can try again next year.

first game

So I had my first rugby game on Saturday. It was against Michigan Tech. the game was a ton of fun the crazy part is that we beat the I believe 11 tries to one try. The hard part for them is that they were losing players about every 10 minutes almost. It got to the point were we had some of our guys went over to play for them. The feel of running on the field and hitting someone with out pads on is crazy. in the beginning of the game we had only one our guys got hurt. He had his nose broken and one our old team member took two pens stuck them up his nose and put it back in place. I have not seen that happened in a long time. After that game we had the alumni game and that was fun to play but they will hit hard. I'm a little shocked that we bet them even if it was by one try. It was still great feeling to be on the team even if I'm not in good shape I think that I'm going do really good. The great thin is to have people on the team help learn.  

first post

So this is my first post and I still don't like computers to much. I just ready for rugby practice or even going back to sleep. The first game should be fun. We are going down to UW Whitewater to play a game. I just don't feel like sitting around till six tonight. Lets just hope no one starts bleed again like the other day practice. The school is cool I wish I could have slept a little longer I'm glad that I don't have school on Fridays. But on Saturday I have to go set up for the alumni game which is going to be fun to watch. I wish that this school had a wrestling team. I miss the sport. But at least in rugby I can hit someone and maybe take out a couple of there rib bones. It should be fun in the scrum I mostly going to be getting a couple teeth knock out but who I mite not. All I know is that if someone punches me I'm hit them back. It is a rugby game and its fun with a little pain is added in to mix. I think with whitewater it should be a fun. The fun thing is that they were ncaa finalist last year and lost that game but I think we can bet them. The guys on the team are pretty cool. the great thing is there try to help me get bet as a player. I really do feel like sitting in a car for six to seven hours just to go to Whitewater Wisconsin I'm just glad I don't have to drive. the week after that we are play University of Minnesota Duluth they won the champion last and still are topped racked team this year but that's going to be fun game.